My short week at Central already opened up a new chapter to the story. I met other teachers, new students, student teachers from other universities and we even went to a going away party for the principal. I am faced with new challenges as I started reading Kite Runner, the book I will be teaching; however numerous projects are already spinning in my head. I went and bought a pack of dry eraser markers and my new favorite items clips and paper clips...they have become my new best friends when it comes to organizing papers. Early Friday morning came with it's own schock. My CT asked me if I could call a parent because one of our students has been giving us a hard time with her cell phone use. Susan wanted me to call so I could speak to him in spanish and as I dialed the number I felt a bit scared but it went away as I realized that we were caring for our student. The call went great and I was happy I could communicate in such a friendly manner with the parent. I can now take one more thing off the "student teacher bucket list."
It is already past week one of student teaching and well the challenges are already mounting. Being the only mother to a soon to be six year old has me questioning much and making decisions that are in ways twisting a bit of my heart. After being part of m fourth period class this whole week made me realize that it is one of the periods I really wish to teach along with period three.. only problem is my daughter gets dropped off at the bus stop every day at the sam class this particular class ends. So I had to make the hard decision of finding a relative to pick her up and having to tell her the news over the weekend was heartbreaking. I am facing two sides...on one of them I am happy to tell Ms. Friendson that I will teach the class I want and on the other is a sad mother with a bitter heart and empty handed since I will not be receiving the lovely hugs of my daughter when she comes of the bus:'(
Mya's hugs will just be more special and wonderful when she meets you at the door when you get home every night! I can't imagine what it is like to have to make decisions like this one, but I am proud of you and think your daughter is too!
ReplyDeleteI also think it is great that she had you call home-these are the things teachers do that we don't learn from a book! I'm anxious to have to do it myself eventually, but hearing your story makes me feel better!
Thanks Kay, you always have such uplifting comments...I apprecite you taking some of your time to write back to me:)
DeleteLucy: Wow. What an eventful week for you. First, I am so happy that your skills as a bilingual teacher are coming into use. This is a gift you have that puts you many notches above the rest of us. Two Languages! (We are all jealous.) Susan, I know, is so thankful for your help. I also felt the tug on my heartstrings when I read about you having to tell your daughter that she'll be picked up by someone else. This, I imagine, is a tiny step in her development as a little person who must make her way...I know it will be okay, but in your writing I can see your conflict (you love her, you love teaching, you love your students).
ReplyDeleteI want to point out to you, though, that is the best of conflicts to have: it is a conflict of LOVE. And, this conflict has only arisen because you are a rising star, you're a go-getter, you had a goal on the horizon that you never let go of, and now that point on the horizon has become the present day. You've arrived, Lucy, and the complexities you're feeling and experiencing are only the universe telling you that you're right where you're supposed to be.
Dr. Cook my eyes just watered a bit. You always help me see what's in front of me, some of those issues I can't always put together....I've arrived, I'm happy to be a part of this ship you're commanding...and yes the love of my profession, my students and daughter are all jumbled up...I am having a heck if a time though because when I see success in all three relationships I just want to stay here,,, conflicts and everything...thank you for your kind words, they really mean so much to me.
DeleteLucy, I amazed by your devotion to the things that you love and the sacrifice you made to follow your aspirations. I am also inspired by the decision you ultimately made. However, I think Kayla and Dr. Cook are right on the money! Your daughter must be proud of the teacher and person that you are continually evolving into. You are a good role model who is setting an incredible example for Mya. It's when we face the tough decisions of our hearts that we find out who we really are and what we are capable of. As Dr. Cook stated, "you're right where you're supposed to be."
ReplyDeleteLisa thanks so much for your comment and I only hope that one day she will think the same. I can only say I have difficult battles everyday between being a mother and a student teacher. I can say though I love both being a mother and a teacher, they are two of my most life fullfilling passions.
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